Mummy kehti hain

I normally have several discussions with my mother. Some on things of common interest, on news, or whatever pleases the two of us. It's almost next to impossible to get the two of us to agree to each other. The reason being that we are two very strong, highly opinionated women (as much as I hate to use the term woman for myself, people around me keep on saying that. So better admit it than remain in a state of denial). She remains adamant on her stand owing to the experiences she's had life and I due to two reasons - one obviously because I am HER daughter and two because I am adamant. When I believe in something, it's almost impossible to shake it.
Let that be. But the point is that we have been discussing many things of late. One of the most common topics has been the thing which many people term as destiny. The sentence which is most commonly uttered from my mouth is 'Only weak people resort to destiny. There is nothing like destiny in the world. It's sheer hard work and your will to succeed which makes or breaks your life'. This has been my thinking ever since childhood. My mother, on the other hand, feels that there is a right time for everything. If you are destined to get something in life, you get it no matter what. And if not, you will never get it no matter how hard you try. I have my opinion and she has hers.
But, to be honest, the last few days have been the 'not so good ones'. For those who don't know me, I have never had anything easy in my life. By anything I mean ANYTHING. So, working terribly hard has perhaps become a way of life for me. It is maybe the only thing I feel I am capable of doing. But all that has never dissuaded me from my goals. I have taken all that sportingly. Despite the odds, I have nursed my dreams always. And above everything else, have firmly believed that they will come true one day or the other.
But as it is in everybody's case, my not so great days are beginning to take a toll on me now. I am getting desperate, feeling helpless, but am still not willing to give in. I have worked hard and the results will definitely show is my retort. I still believe that if you aspire of anything strongly, from the bottom of your heart you get it. But yes this aspiration, according to me, is conditional. The condition is that you should reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllllllllllllly want it and second is that the efforts that you have put in should be more than 100 per cent. Then may be even God will answer your prayers (yes, I do believe in God. But no, not in destiny.)
I don't know how long I will be able to cling on to my opinion. I don't know whether it will be me or my mother's opinion that will stand the test of time. But one thing I will definitely maintain - nothing can stop me from achieving my goals.
Manjiri